the time now is 6.15am
it ended... 1 year 2 month 20days....

the words.
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the first sight,

It has been a year plus since the first day i met you.. i remembered, we get to know each other through friendster and contact through testimonials. During that period i kept using the computer to check if you replied or not? the deeper impression once are the sundays when me and my family members will go out for dinner. I've always wanted to reach home quickly to check if there's any testimonials, and finally i asked you for your hotmail so i could chat to you online on msn, we chat quite alot eventhough we only know each other for a few days. Untill one day i've finally found the courage to ask for your number in msn when i cannot use the computer. I started smsing you and the relationship got deeper and deeper day by day, almost one week past, I asked you for stead, you didn't agree right on the spot because we only know each other for only a short period of time. i kept trying to be as good to you as possible because i knew that you will be serious in a relationship and we could last long. I kept phyco-ing you untill you finally agree but i have to come up with 10 reasons why i asked you for stead, i kept thinking and said what i thought of but suddenly come up with 10 reasons won't be 10 good ones and i'm not a very smart person. So i've suggested to give one reason per day and day by day, thinking and finding reasons to give, 10 days past just in a blink. But you are still not ready for a relationship and asked me to give you more time to think, first is 1 week and followed by one month. While waiting for your reply, I've noticed that your birthday is coming soon and i have to give you something but i didn't know what to give you. I thought of many things like t-shirts and stuffs and finally, by the help of your friends and your blog, I know that you have wanted
1000 straw hearts in the wishlist. But i didn't know how to make, when i'm surfing the net, i went to youtube and tried my luck to see if there is any videos which will teach how to make straw hearts, i've found quite many and finally cling myself on one of the video and started to learn. I told my mother i'm learning how to make straw hearts and she was curious about it too, she helped to figure out the video and we both kept trying and trying untill i've make my first straw heart, I bought many packets of straws to make 1000, and one day make about 100 while watching anime and smsing you. I went to westmall to get a container for the straw hearts and finally found one which will be big enough to stuff in 1000 straw heart, I bought it and went home happily making the box up and counting the hearts. Finally it's may 31, which is your birthday. I texted you and meet at the buzz shop in the bukit batok bus interchange to pass you the present but it was not the straw heart because i'm not done writing any card or notes on it yet, so i went to westmall again to buy you another present which is a teddy bear holding a rose, the first eye i saw you was, a guai kia! and soon after passing the present, we bid goodbye to each other while both of us left feeling shy.

the 20 days curse,

in the days before our 20 days, i was afraid of you leaving me because my first ex broke up with me on the 18th day, and my secound on the 19th day, so i was afraid of you leaving me on the 20th day. it's silly isn't it? and finally the 20th days past and we are still texting each other.

the first kiss,

we hardly meet because we both don't know how to face each other, only in schools where i will purposly walk a long way just to see how's she's doing from the window of her class, time past quickly untill it's 27th june 2007 8.45pm when she finally agreed to stead with me. But eventhough we are boyfriend-girlfriend, we are still shy when we meet each other. untill
20th july 2007 when she meet me and my friends, we went to 620 car park to play carpark catching when i first huged her and kiss her on the lips. it was so sweet, and i remembered the day well because it was 20072007, 20/07/2007.

the first month,

I went to school carrying the box of straw heart preparing to pass it to her as out first month anniversary present, i was so excited wondering how will she react when she open up the box. I waited and waited for a chance to pass to her all the way untill recess time when i could finally pass it to her. She took it and smiled to me, I was so dam happy. she went out with me after school and at night when we finally wanted to go home, she passed me a plastic bag containing a glass cup with the words I love you and 520 with a letter beside it. it was the best gift i receive from anyone during that period of time and i've always used the cup all the way untill now still using it, but i was so careful while using it because i scared that the glass cup might break.

my birthday 19/08/2007

It was sunday when me and you meet in the morning as to celebrate my 15th birthday. where we went i can't remember but i surly remember we went to bukit timah to play pool, after playing when i'm going to accompany you wait for cab, you pass me a birthday present.
and when i opened it up, it was a wallet! and the wallet i using that time was also going to spoil soon, i was so touched, while reading the letter beside the wallet. I've always treated this wallet as my treasure, even when have to give something for detention, either ez link card, wallet or handphones, i won't give my wallet. i remember not long ago, my ez link card was already with the teacher because i was late another time before this, i had to turn in my wallet or handphone, as i won't give my handphone because it's important because to contact, but i won't bear that my wallet will be confiscated by the teacher. I left with no choice but to turn in my Identity card(IC)

the second month

we meet again but i forget where we did but i'm sure it was at westmall.

the third month

It was in school before morning assembly when you ask me to find you and wanted to pass me something. when i've met you, you passed me a plastic bag containing a box. i have really no idea wad was in it in the box. when i open it up, it was 2 sort of key chain but is for hanging for nice and a bottle of sweet with mentos in it. I remembered before you passed me this present, you asked me wad colour i like and what sweet i like and stuffs bluffing me saying that it's a quiz seeing how's a person's personarity like and stuffs but it was for the 3rd month present in real.


as i'm typing these out, my tears are flowing, reading the letters you wrote to me remind me of the past. the pain is unbearable but i want to let you know, how much i love and care about you..
i really love you very much.. i need you.. i'll continue with the other months and things next time.. it's 8.16am already.